Disappointing results, duh? But nah, not gonna be affected. I'm never gonna be sad no matter how sucky my results are. I've already got many things to worry, not going to add another thing to further heavy my burden. Right?! RIGHT.



This is boring. Not looking forward to school just by thinking, no. Feeeeeeling. About the lessons we'll be having. Like for once I don't wanna be in the classroom!?!?! This is so not the right mindset I should be having.. But whatever~


Mum didnt asked about my results so I didnt mention a single thing to her. Oh well, not really important to her anyway, I suppose so....? It's not really worth boasting about too. So.... hahaha, wait till she ask about it.




I need more time to rush through all my recorded shows and drama! Got to finish x family by next week to return Priscilla. Plus! There's tuition this saturday which I'm really not looking forward to, too, also I wouldn't be able to finish x family. Tuition ah tuition..... What's wrong with me man. I got to stop thinking like this if not I'll be real dead.



AND.




I hate myself for being so useless and weak. Couldn't believe what I actually did today. I mean like, heyyyy it's an extremely trivial matter and I could actually - URGH. I always thought I'm strong enough to handle any thing, until today. Now I don't know where to place my face. In the toilet bowl? Hm.. Maybe. Or in the rubbish bin.



Just couldn't stop thinking about it. Again and again, I asked myself wtf happened to me, why am I like that. I really don't know how to face the world now. Shit me for being so useless.
Ahhhhhhh hate this hate this -_____________-